I am a divorced dad who’s kids are grown and out of the house. I’ve lived my life as a primarily straight dude – and I am honestly not attracted to men. You could put 1000 women in a room and I could sort every one of them by their attractiveness to me. I could not do the same with men. I literally cannot distinguish between George Clooney,, Brad Pitt and Danny DeVito in terms of attractiveness. However, there is something very erotic to me about having sex with a man.

My wiring feels like it is wrong. I want to suck a cock but I don’t want to kiss a guy. Given this perception of being off – I really try to be open and tolerant of the way other people are wired. You don’t pick what you like, you just like it.

I’ve sucked a few cocks over the years. The first was a few years after the divorce back in the Craigslist days. I’d had the desire for a while and since I was single I figured why not. I remember kneeling down and staring at his cock and asking myself if I was really gonna do this? Then I moved forward and pressed his cock past my lips and into my mouth. There it was – I was now a cocksucker. I blew him for a few minutes and tasted precum. That taste has remained in my mind for all of these years. I loved it. We shifted around a bit and at one point I was on all fours with my ass in the air. I thought about asking him if he wanted to fuck me but I was too shy. Instead we got to a position where he was blowing me and I came quick. After that I left quickly because something happens to me immediately after I cum with men. It’s a combination of guilt and revulsion and shame. That lasted for a few years. I did not go back to cock quickly. I had my experiment and it was over. I also started dating a girl – and have never been unfaithful. So years ticked by.

I learned about Grindr not too long ago. I’d been having problems with my girlfriend and decided to poke around. I posted a profile with a body shot without a face pic to keep my anonymity. I eventually started messaging with a young person (30ish) who identifies as queer, non-binary, gender fluid, feminine energy. I hesitated to use the word queer in the title of this piece – as it has been a derogatory term in the circles I have existed in throughout my life. But I am trying to learn and if it the term used by my new friend, then I assume it is the term I should use.

We messaged back and forth for a while as we were both in relationships but enjoyed the conversation. It was an actual connection – which is rare. We shared pictures and I was surprised at how beautiful his ass is. His photos were all dolled up in lingerie and very feminine looking. The pictures were really hot.

Unfortunately things took a turn for the worse with my girlfriend and we broke up. I confided in my new friend and he let me know that he had also just ended a relationship. I told him I had a crazy idea and asked if he would like to go up to my cabin next weekend. Given that we had never met – or even traded face pics, this was a huge leap of faith, but he accepted. In anticipation my cock became hard immediately and wanted attention, but I resisted. I wanted it a peak performance this weekend. I picked him up Friday after work. He was all dressed up in a pretty dress with a wig and make up. We started the drive and his attitude was so light and so pleasant that it put me at ease. I was just really comfortable. We went over the same topics we had covered in our messages, but it was way hotter to hear the words and to speak the words to someone sitting next to you. Tone is incredibly more powerful in a real face to face conversation.

While we were talking and about an hour from the cabin I put my hand on his leg. He noted it, let out a little purr and moved his hips so that my hand drifted closer to his crotch. I boldly – but slowly – caressed his thigh, then his inner thigh. Again he responded with a purr and a hip thrust. The thrust put my hand in contact with his panties. I moved my hand closer and while massaging his thigh, the edge of my hand was contacting his balls and cock head.

I lifted up his skirt and exposed everything. His panties were lace and I could finally see his cock with the brief glances I was able to sneak in while still driving the car. His cock was not as big as mine, but it was a respectable size and looked great. No hair was seen anywhere and he was hard. I reached into his panties and grabbed his cock. It felt good to have another cock in my hand. I squeezed it – admiring the steel underneath the soft skin. I stroked it – eliciting more purring and hip grinding.

Then he pulled my arm off and covered up putting his skirt back in place.

He asked if he could see my cock. I happily scooted around to undo my jeans and slide them down enough to get access. I pulled my cock out which was rock hard – being so turned on by having touched his cock. He reached over and lightly fondled my balls. He stayed there for a while keeping up the conversation. It felt wonderful while also building anticipation. He surprised me by moving down to my taint instead of going for my cock. He kept the massage going for a while and he knew how to get right to the prostrate from the outside. He then bent over and took my cock in his mouth. It was tough to focus on driving with the best blow job of my life going on. He surprised me again when going particularly deep on my cock, he slipped a finger inside me and began massaging the prostate directly.

After a minute I asked him to stop because I was going to cum soon. He just sucked harder and continued stimulating my prostate. Faster and harder I fucked his face. His ability to deep throat me was un fucking believable. This situation was so hot I could not hold back. I kept fucking his face – fucking his throat – and my cock started to pulse. He knew what was cumming and he pulled back just enough so that he was sucking on the head of my cock. I blasted shot after shot of cum into his mouth – which he caught, savored and swallowed. He cleaned me up and tucked everything back into place. I zipped up and told him how amazing it was.

We sat back and relaxed for the rest of the ride – keeping our hands to ourselves. We made small talk and got to know each other a little better. It was exciting to learn about his life. He was so different and free. He had been out for most of his life and just presented his true self fearlessly. I on the other hand would never think of sharing this side of me with anyone. This was my secret. His honesty was wonderful.

We got to the cabin and set everything up. He complimented me on how nice things were as I had given him the impression it was far more rustic than it is. We made a bed. After we got settled in, he asked if he could give me a fashion show. Of course I accepted. He went into the other room to change and when he came back was wearing the sexiest outfit with fishnets and straps accentuating his beautiful body. He was relatively small but fit – zero fat, a decent feminine muscle tone and the ass of a supermodel. At one point he bent over and held his ankles keeping his legs perfectly straight. He looked so fucking sexy. His legs were toned and long. His ass was perfectly tight. In that pose, his ass actually spread apart a little and I could see his rosebud.

I asked him to come to where I was sitting on the couch. He walked over and I touched him. Just touched all over his lean body. I felt his arms and chest. His ass and legs and back. I moved from his ass to his balls and cock. He looked down on me and I up at him as I pulled him to me and took his cock in my mouth. It had been a long time since I had a cock in my mouth and I really missed it – but took advantage to focus on my enjoyment of this experience. He was clean – no hair and only the slightest scent. I think there was a bit of residual precum from our adventures in the car, but it just added to the experience – one more sense stimulated. While I sucked him, I returned the favor from earlier and put my middle finger into his ass and massaged his insides. I believe he enjoyed the blow job but was really pushing back hard on my finger so I added another. His moans were syncing up with his pushing down on my hand and his purrs became louder and louder. I’m typically good for 1 cum per day which is why I wanted to stop in the car but his body’s reaction to my fingers had my cock raging hard and eager to get back in the game.

He grabbed my head and pulled his cock out of my mouth. “You need to fuck me right now”. We walked into the bedroom. As he got on all fours on the bed, I pulled out the lube applied some to my cock and then his ass. Then I climbed behind him and slowly pushed my cock inside of his body. I let it sit there for a minute, resisting my urge to frantically fuck this ass. I slowly pulled almost all the way out and slowly pushed all the way back in. I kept up this slow, methodical pace until he started pushing back and progressively pushing back harder and harder.

I have fucked girls in the ass before and it was fun, but it was always something that they sort of tolerated for me. The person currently with my cock in his ass was absolutely loving being fucked. I get off on the person I am with enjoying the experience. This kid was generating massive power. I barely had to move and he was bouncing on my cock like a madman. Pound, pound, pound! I fucked his ass long and hard. I rolled him onto his back and fucked him like a woman. The ironic thought that came to my mind was that in this position, I get to see his cock. His cock was still hard – bouncing everywhere as I thrust hard into his ass. His moaning got louder again and more girly. Again he was pushing back hard as I fucked his ass hard. Harder. Deeper. Faster. The moans going crazy. And then he starts to cum. Neither of us has touched his cock but he is shooting rope and rope all over himself. This is the hottest scene I have ever seen. It puts me over the edge as I pump my hot cum into his ass.

After we catch our breath we take a shower together and clean each others bodies. We get back in bed and sleep. I hold him all night long. It feels good to have so much body contact with him.